Hate is all around us....

Hate is so many places, and the internet has become a great place to spread the hate to others. In my youth, a time when I was extremely angry and resentful at life, I never spread the words of hate to others. My father did receive most of my anger, and at times, in the high of my immaturity other innocent children my age felt my wrath, through name calling but never did I hate so much to spread evil around the innocence of others.
My friend told me to look at this blog site so maybe I could spread messages of happiness, hope, and faith. To say that I am disgusted is an under statement. There are people out there touching the world with their words of hate, suicide, depression, the practice of cutting themselves, and inserting terror into peoples' days and lives. I am sad beyond words. For once I am at a loss to describe my utter devastation at what is happening to a whole genaration of the youth that is supposed to one day lead us into environmental conservation and peace.
Of course there are great kids out there, but the amount of illness and parasites that are spreading the word of the devil on the internet right now is unbearable, and needs to stop. I don't know how to stop it, but I will find a way to help one person at a time, and change this poisoning of other's minds.
I read a blog from a mother of three and broke into tears sitting at my computer. She talked about every one she hates, which basically included the world. She went on to say she hates us for reading her and didn't want to hear our responses. She was raped, she was lost and she was sad. I felt she was misrepresenting herself in her confusion.
I responded and this is what I said. "I do not believe you hate all of these people. I do not believe your heart is full of hate. I do not believe this is the person you are on the inside. I do not believe you want to hate. I do believe you hate yourself because others hurt you and you feel like you deserve nothing in life. I feel you don't want to hate the ones that hurt you, you want to forgive, but you don't know how. The good news is, it doesn't matter what I believe, it only matters what you believe. I am here to tell you, you will find your angel in this evil. You love your kids, you love your husband,you just don't love yourself. You should love yourself. I hope you find many gifts in life to love and not hate. I am sorry for your pain."
I went back on the blog spot three hours later. There was a note from this girl. It was titled what I love. Who knows if I had any influence. But, I will continue to try and help these people. Yesterday, after my grandmother died, I really realized why I didn't end up like these people. It was because my grandmother loved me, and never gave up on me. No one else loved me, but she did. I perservered. I decided I will blog my words daily to five people and show them that someone cares. If I can help one of these lost persons I will be fulfilled.
Yesterday, I blogged my words to a girl that has been up for forty eight hours, and cannot rest her mind. I tried to rest her mind for her. She thanked me. Then I blogged a girl that feels like she has no friends, she had a boyfriend that abused her, and told her she deserved it. While she was blogging she said she was cutting herself. I was in a panic.
I wrote her. I told her, people care, there is always someone to help, and I told her I care. Then I told her,she didn't deserve to be abused, no one deserves that, especially not her. I asked her to please stop cutting herself, that she does not need to turn herself into an ugly person that no one will want, she is making herself ugly with one cut at a time.I told her I know you want to make yourself so ugly that no one will look at you. She wrote me back, and thanked me for caring. She said she was calling her mom,going to take her meds, and try to sleep.
I am heart broken. Life is so good and these young adults,and some even older, are rotting away while typing their pitiful and depressing thoughts. What can we do? For now, I will just get on and keep typing my thoughts for happiness and peace to them. I will befriend a thousand lost children if I need to. Please if you know people like this, take the time out of your day, and give guidance to those that need it.
I am off to try and comfort someone, and then pick up my kids from school. When I see my kids, I will hug them, and tell them they are loved. My next blog will be, "How did this happen?!"